Leave the US and LA, it is killing you. Become a spiritual “seeker.” You are writing about this meaningless man named Dave, about his even more meaningless temporary opinion about men that dress up like women. It’s a waste of your time. He is an actor wearing a monkey suit that is controlled by a ginormous computer. Ask for a refund for your tickets, in a hand written letter, so that you can frame it for all posterity. Get out of Dodge (while you still can).