Maybe. However, if you are going to become a spiritual seeker then you are going to have to learn truth. That means growing in awareness, and it means learning about evil.

There's growth beyond this world. God does exist.

However, this earth we were born into isn't good. The earth's nature is evil. Human beings are not self-possessed, and people don't really have free will here.

Human beings are held in a closed system and the outside world has a difficult time reaching us. Truth is censored here, and there's a nefarious reason for this censorship. Remaining unaware and blind is not in your self interest, nor is it in the interest of others.

The real world is bigger than our universe. My perspective is not sad, you see. My perspective is huge. Unfortunately, in our local space, we appear to be trapped in a world controlled by a love flavored serial killer.

What I am writing might not make any sense to you at the moment, but it might later once you start to learn.