You are being deceived. Human beings are under active control by advanced beings and advanced technology. We are being exploited for energy, food, clothing and textiles. I have first hand experience with the other realms that are exploiting us. The comforting spiritual experience you describe, is itself part of the deception. I have a very strong feeling you will never believe what I have just written. It isn’t that you are spiritually awake, it is that you are spiritually blind. I am not trying to insult you. I am trying to get you to wake up. I have had all kinds of similar experiences, and I have been shown the truth. Can you imagine the level of ego of the human being that believes that they are the universe, while at the same time knowing nothing about the universe?